Does killing myself make me a killer?

Thinking about death makes me happy, but thinking about staying alive; makes me depressed

I guess I’m ready to die

:D yay!

So when I die, I want people to play “Suicide is Painless” and “Coma White” by Marilyn Manson; at my funeral

Now that I don’t have anything to lose I can join the marines now. It won’t make a difference but all I’ll have to look forward to is to get shot and die

When I’m gone you wish you would’ve listened to me and stopped flirting or talking to all those people